Pure joy

My departure is coming close. And the closer it gets, the more annoyances (aka. thorns of the flesh as Paul called them) keep showing up. Some are self-inflicted by my lack of trust and insecurity, but some for sure are results of the spiritual warfare going on over my decision to go on a mission…

Still

Twenty days until I get on the plane. There’s a lot of emotions that I’m not sure how to process yet. I’m anxious about leaving home and being on my own. I’m a bit concerned about how people there will receive me. I’m nervous about communicating daily with kids who don’t know English. And whether…

Milestone #1

He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm. Matthew 8:26 God pulled through at the last minute. I bought my plane ticket. Poland is officially a-go! The reality of this hasn’t totally sunk in yet. The…

Book: Beautiful Outlaw

To take a little aside from my usual posts, I wanted to highlight this book I’ve been reading called “Beautiful Outlaw” by John Eldredge (also well known for “Wild At Heart”). I haven’t quite finished the whole thing (3 chapters left!), but it’s opened up a whole perspective of Jesus that I’ve missed: Jesus’ personality….

Waiting Game

I’m not a fan of patience. I don’t know a lot of people who are. I’m so used to instant gratification that anything that takes longer than I expect it to makes me antsy. Especially if I’m not able to control the outcome and I really, really want it to happen. Like this mission. I…

Kontakt Piotrków

My last visit to Poland was for Kontakt Piotrków, a week-long community service festival in Piotrków Trybunalski. It was the first time Proem had hosted Kontakt in that city and the officials were nervous. By the end of the week, though, they absolutely wanted us back. I’d never done a Kontakt Festival before and wasn’t…

Bring it all to Peace

In my last post, I was really feeling helpless. My anxiety and worry over the details made me feel like the road ahead was too much. Like I couldn’t possibly make this happen. I couldn’t see how God was going to move the obstacles in my way. Well, happily, I’m not in that space anymore….

Storm front

Fear is the opposite of security. I’ve been reading a Bible plan about worry. The usual Scriptures are in there: Matthew 6:25-34 (“do not worry about tomorrow”), Proverbs 3:5-6 (“trust in the Lord, lean not on your understanding”), 1 Peter 5:7 (“give God your worries because he cares for you”). But there was a devotional…

Fishart Camp

My first trip to Poland was what jump started my love for this place. It was a trip where nothing went as expected, but everything happened as it should have. I learned to roll with what was given to me and make it work. So, here’s the story. When we first arrived at the camp,…

Be prepared #1

July is here! That means I have about 60 days to be ready. Less than that to have all my funds together. Holy cow. I’m much calmer today than I was most of this week. I haven’t been eating or sleeping properly because I’m worried, stressed, and scared. My head is full of to-dos and…

So it begins

I sat on my couch last Friday night, filling out and submitting my application for a long-term mission in Poland with Proem Ministries. And today, I got it back. Approved! Green light! It’s really happening! God has made it so clear that I need to do this. Like, I’m convinced in a way that I’ve…